I'm really scared because for the first time in my life, I'm siding with the world instead of with the church because I can't find any good friends inside of the church.
And when i say church, i mean people that believe what i believe.
I've only loved one girl and she is the girl that i talked about before on here.
She was a lot like me, but honestly, she didn't like me back.
Now, I can't seem to find any good friends who listen to good music and read good books that also believe the way i do.
I can't find a girl who i want to date. Who i actually want to spend time with.
I want a girl that doesn't want a ring to get married. It would be sweet to get a tattoo instead of a ring.
stuff like that.
I'm mad at myself for giving into sin so easily. The kind of sin that goes unnoticed until it's too late, and I'm mad that if i told the people around me what kind of sin it was, they wouldn't care.
I don't know what else to say.
If you're going to ask me about my life story, ask me about it in person.
We only need to relate to one another when we feel weak and I'm sure your God knows you're not weak, Noah.
ReplyDeletePeople ONLY care about sin; that's our lifeblood, our wiseblood, the thing that guides us to our humanity. And while some sins cut deeper than others, people will always care about all forms and shapes of sin. People care.
i love what you said about a tattoo instead of a ring. Rings are over-rated, becuase they can always be re-cycled or removed, but a tattoo is almost forever, and even when its gone, theres still teh faint mark of where it was... the same could also be said about the person you choose to marry though.
ReplyDeletenever one hundred percent gone.